B. R. Mendozaâs Record
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Week One
(Baseline)
March 11, 2002
Monday, 5:02am
Negative Towards Self
Feeling:Ê I am feeling very tired and lazy.Ê My body does not want to get up and my hands want to stop writing.Ê I feel like turning off my little book light so I do not disturb my roommate.Ê I just want to get back to bed.Ê I want to go to the bathroom and just wash up but I feel like I just need to get to bed.
Thinking:Ê I do not want to get up.Ê I hope I do not disturb my roommate.Ê I cannot even hear the birds chirping, and the sun is not even out.Ê I think this might be a stupid assignment.Ê Just a few more days to go·Ê I wonder what other people are doing this project or if they even started.Ê Am I wasting my time?
Actions:Ê Right now I am writing but I do not want to write·Ê I want to sleep.Ê People could probably see my body language and read it as negativity.Ê My handwriting is not that great, sometime I could call ãchicken scratch.äÊ People that know me well would notice my silence and the constant moving or light biting of my lower lip, and rolling of my eyes, and the yawning.Ê What people cannot see is the small headache I have and how could I feel in this dorm room.
March 12, 2002
Tuesday, 4:58am
Negative Towards Self
Feeling:Ê I feel like getting back to bed.Ê I also feel a bit afraid for being up this early because I know my roommate will be getting up soon for his 7:30am class.Ê I feel so bored and I just want to get back to bed.Ê I feel so tired and I just want to go underneath my bed sheets and rest on my soft pillow.
Thinking:Ê I am beginning to think that this project is nonsense.Ê My roommate is going to think I am weird for being up so early just to study.Ê Why is it so cold in the room?Ê The windows are close.Ê Should I go to the bathroom now and start my day?Ê Another long day of hard work and homework·Ê Am I even doing this project correctly?Ê Ahhhhh man, is today another full day of negativity.
Doing:Ê I just got back from the bathroom and it took a long while for the warm water to come out.Ê My roommate constantly sees and hears me yawn.Ê My leg cannot stop shaking and I cannot help but stretch my arms every five minutes.Ê I catch myself constantly looking out the window and getting up to get a drink of water.Ê I do not know why but my foot and back hurts a little and my ears feel a little sore too.Ê My answers to any questions seemed to be very short or mostly one-word.Ê I like to stay silent until someone says something.
March 13, 2002
Wednesday, 5:09am
Negative Towards Self
Feeling:Ê I feel more tired today than the previous times I woke up this early.Ê I feel like this routine might be a bad habit developing.Ê I feel unprepared when I go to class and not functioning properly due to the lack of sleep.Ê I feel like getting back to bed and just sleeping for about an hour and a half more.Ê I feel so ãjunkyä inside.Ê I also feel nervous for some reason.
Thinking:Ê I think my roommate thinks I am weird.Ê I havenât told him yet my purpose for waking up so early, which I think is kind of funny at the moment.Ê Itâs 5:15 now and it is so quiet.Ê I want to turn on my radio.Ê I think I forgot the purpose of this project.Ê I should just blast my radio and wake up everyone.Ê I have not reason to be up this early and hurt my body· Oh wait, I want an ãA.äÊ I wonder whatâs on the radio?Ê I wonder who else is doing or starting their report 2?Ê Is anyone even up?
Doing:Ê I am in class at the moment and I find myself having some difficulty smiling.Ê My answers are again short or one-word answers.Ê I cannot help but constantly look down at the floor and stay quiet.Ê Iâm acting as if I am ignoring everyone, but I am not, I am just tired.Ê No one knows how much work I need to get done or the lack of sleep I am getting because of schoolwork.Ê I can hear my heart beat and feel it pumping faster.Ê My breathing has changed a little and I do not want to write any more.
March 14, 2002
Thursday, 4:59am
Negative Towards Others
Feeling:Ê I am up early again and I feel like this project is nonsense.Ê I feel like venting out because I am so tired and no one is willing to listen.Ê I feel like waking up my roommate so he can start his day early and prepare better for his 7:30am class at Kuykendal.Ê I feel like going up to my other classmates and just asking them if they started they report 2, because if they didnât, I hope and pray they get things done.Ê I feel very irritated
Thinking:Ê I want to turn on my radio loud and just wake up this whole building.Ê Maybe I should just go to the bathroom and just constantly flush the toilet just to see if it will wake up everyone.Ê I want an ãAä but we are not supposed to MUSTERBATE right?Ê Ha ha what ever.Ê I think I will just climb right back to bed right now.
Doing:Ê I find myself not talking to anyone.Ê If I do talk, it is very sarcastically, and irrationally.Ê No one seems like they want to talk to me.Ê I am biting my bottom lip again, and my leg is shaking and shaking.Ê No one knows how much work waits for me at my dorm room, or all the pressures some professors are putting on my to do well in certain classes and certain clubs.Ê My heart is beating faster now and my hand is beginning to hurt from all this writing.
March 15, 2002
Friday, 5:10am
Negative Towards Others
Feeling:Ê I am still tired and there is not reason for me to be up this early.Ê I feeling like throwing something at that cat that I see outside my window.Ê I feel so ãjunkä inside and I sometimes wish others could feel what I am feeling and seeing if they can keep a smile on their faces.Ê I feel irritated again.
Thinking:Ê Why are people looking at me that way?Ê Did I do sometime wrong?Ê It is now 9:50am, just a few more minutes until class is over then I can finish some other projects.Ê I feel like slapping my professor right now for doing a poor presentation.Ê How am I supposed to take notes of he clicks his power point slides too fast.Ê I am not a speed writer.Ê Some students cannot shut their mouth, damit.
Doing:Ê I am not smiling again.Ê I find myself wearing black so many days in a row too.Ê My CD player is at its loudest and I am somewhat ignoring those around me.Ê I do not want to write anymore.Ê My sarcasm seems to be coming out more and more, and each comment seems to be worst than the one before.Ê There are just too many thoughts running through my mind.
March 16, 2002
Saturday, 5:01am
Negative Towards Others
Feeling:Ê I am feeling very tired and lazy.Ê I feel like my mother is going to walk into my room, see me up studying, and going to tell me to start washing my clothes or to start fixing up my room since I am already up.Ê I feel angry at myself for not doing or starting this report earlier, or not making myself start earlier.Ê I am up early again and I feel like this project is nonsense.
Thinking:Ê Why I am up so early on a weekend?Ê At least I am dedicated to doing this project, I do not choose what to say about what others might be doing.Ê They are probably sleeping, something I want to do right now.Ê Just a few more days to go, and a few more work to finish.Ê The last day for negativity, thank God.
Doing:Ê I am just writing.Ê There are a lot of things running through my mind again and I am having some difficulty writing them down.Ê I want to close my window but it will get too hot.Ê I do not want to write anymore.Ê My hand hurts and my body just wants to rest.Ê I did pray as soon as I got up.
Week Two
(Intervention)
March 19, 2002
Tuesday, 5:03am
Positive Towards Self
Feeling:Ê I am feeling very tired at the moment but I have no complaints about it.Ê I am happy and I feel prepared for my day to begin.Ê I feel satisfied with the work I am doing and I am feeling some confidence in how my day may play out.
Thinking:Ê I hope I do not wake up my roommate.Ê I know he went to sleep late last night and he does not have to wake up for another 45 minutes.Ê I wonder what everyone else is doing right now?Ê I have to do my Ilokano work and read my Emotions book later today.Ê If I finish most of my work by 12:00pm, I can relax for the rest of the day and revise my other papers.Ê I finished my PSY 212 work already.
Doing:Ê I am organizing my calendar and freeing up all the free time for rest and relaxation, and some studying here and there.Ê I am not rolling my eyes as much and I am more awake and ready to attack the day.Ê I find myself constantly moving around quietly, making sure not to wake up my roommate.
March 20, 2002
Wednesday, 4:58am
Positive Towards Self
Feeling:Ê Another early morning and I feel a little tired but ready and willing to start my day.Ê I feel more organized and prepared for any event to come.Ê I also feel a little stress because of an up coming test but I prepared for it for many weeks so I should not feel too bad about it.Ê I feel a little bored because all I am doing is writing, but it is sometime productive.
Thinking:Ê Today might be a long day, but I am ready for it.Ê I have another practice this week so itâs time to have a positive attitude so the group will work productively.Ê No sarcasm today, or try to limit them.Ê Not worth having sarcasms when I am trying to get things done with less adversities.Ê I want to check my email.
Doing:Ê It might be early in the morning but I find myself studying better in the morning, not tired or falling asleep.Ê My head hurts a little for all the writing and I am developing a small headache.Ê I opened the window slowly to let some air in.Ê I can listen to the radio, now that I have my head-set.
March 21, 2002
Thursday, 5:10am
Positive Towards Self
Feeling:Ê I feel really tired right now and I would like to get back to bed.Ê It is really early in the morning but I guess it is ok.Ê I feel like going running since it is early and cool outside.Ê The run could do be good· gives me the opportunity to clear my mind and get a healthy workout.
Thinking:Ê Two more days of school then the weekend.Ê I can finish part of report 2 this morning then now worry about being behind later.Ê I wonder what I will be doing at work today?Ê The meeting yesterday was actually productive.Ê I think I might go running this morning, but I am a bit scared going by myself.Ê Should I wake up my roommate?Ê I know he likes to go running.Ê I think I will just stay here and work on my other projects until class starts.
Doing:Ê I am just sitting in front of my computer, pencil in my right hand and my work in the other.Ê I choose not to type at the moment because it might make too much noise.Ê I want working on report 2 and I will be working on my outline for my presentation that will be in less than am month.
March 22, 2002
Friday, 5:07am
Positive Towards Others
Feeling:Ê I am very tired this morning but feel very happy that today is Friday.Ê I am also feeling a bit worried on whether or not I am doing this project correctly but I also feel ready to change any of my mistakes.Ê I feel confused too.Ê I feel let getting back into bed because it is really early.
Thinking:Ê I should be able to finish most of my work and have my weekend stress-free.Ê Everyone else seems to be happy with how the morning is going.Ê Some of them look a little scared as if there is a test today, or an upcoming test.Ê I think I was supposed to bring my notes to class for a friend, that he wanted to borrow.Ê Things will work out for the best.
Doing:Ê I am smiling more and talking more.Ê I am answering questions with great ease and giving good examples.Ê I am understanding my teacherâs lecture and I am not talking or acting sarcastically.Ê My hand is hurting a little from all this writing but it is ok.Ê My neck hurts a little too.
March 23, 2002
Saturday, 5:13am
Positive Towards Others
Feeling:Ê It is very early in the morning and I do not really want ãrise and shine.äÊ I feel as if I developed a habit of getting up too early in the morning, which is not really a bad habit depending on what I am doing and what day it is.Ê I feel a little stress from this project, but I am very happy to be getting things done.
Thinking:Ê I just want to get back to bed.Ê I do not really want to write at the moment but it is for a good cause and I know I will not have to do this later.Ê ãBetter late than never.äÊ All these stress will pay off in the end.Ê I have no reason to complain because I am working for my grade, and working hard to not only please others, but to also please myself.
Doing:Ê Writing this early in the morning is somewhat weird.Ê I saw my dad pass by my room when I went to the bathroom, which was surprising.Ê He has no reason to be up, or at least I think he doesnât.Ê My mother will be happy with me cleaning my room so early in the morning and having her not tell me when to start and what things to do.Ê My room is cleaner.
March 24, 2002
Sunday, 5:20am
Positive Towards Others
Feeling:Ê The last day of observation and the last day of waking up so early in the morning.Ê I feel relieved and excited to finally finish my observation.Ê I feel as if I am behind on my work but I have more feelings of accomplishment now that things are almost done.Ê Feelings of stress are slowly slipping away.
Thinking:Ê The faster, smarter, and harder I work, the result should be better, maybe big even.Ê I am still tired here.Ê Writing at 6:00 in the morning is not really easy to do, but worth doing.Ê I am getting things done and I will have more time to work on my other assignments.
Doing:Ê I did a lot of praying.Ê I also did a whole bunch of cleaning.Ê I am helping around the house more and keeping myself active.Ê I am not complaining and I am just getting my work done.Ê I am keeping myself busy with all this schoolwork and chores.Ê Things are actually going well.
Global Scale Rating
_____ 1) What was my overall stress point today? (1 = very weak; 10 = extreme)
_____ 2) What was my over level of satisfaction with myself today? (1 = very weak; 10 = extreme)
_____ 3) What was my overall level of dissatisfaction with others today? (1 = very weak; 10 = extreme)
_____ 4) What was my overall level of effectiveness or productivity today? (1 = very weak; 10 = extreme)
_____ 5) What was my overall level of coping successfully with my feelings today? (1 = very ineffectual; 10 = extremely effective)
_____ 6) What is my current level of hope for the future? (1 = little hope or brightness; 10 = extremely hopeful and bright)
_____ 7) What was the worst level of negativity or selfishness of some other people around you? (1 = almost no negativity or selfishness observed; 10 = extremely strong negativity or selfish behavior observed)
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Overall stress point |
Level of satisfaction |
Level of Dissatisfaction |
Level of effectiveness |
Level of Level of coping successfully |
Level of hope for the future |
Level of negativity or selfishness of some other people around you |
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March 11 |
7 |
3 |
7 |
3 |
2 |
3 |
2 |
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March12 |
5 |
4 |
8 |
4 |
4 |
4 |
2 |
|
March 13 |
6 |
2 |
8 |
4 |
5 |
7 |
4 |
|
March 14 |
7 |
3 |
8 |
2 |
7 |
7 |
1 |
|
March 15 |
3 |
5 |
7 |
4 |
5 |
7 |
3 |
|
March 16 |
2 |
6 |
5 |
5 |
7 |
8 |
2 |
|
March 19 |
2 |
7 |
3 |
8 |
8 |
8 |
1 |
|
March 20 |
2 |
7 |
2 |
9 |
9 |
9 |
3 |
|
March 21 |
2 |
7 |
2 |
9 |
9 |
8 |
2 |
|
March 22 |
1 |
8 |
3 |
7 |
9 |
8 |
3 |
|
March 23 |
2 |
9 |
2 |
8 |
8 |
9 |
1 |
|
March 24 |
1 |
8 |
1 |
9 |
9 |
9 |
1 |
I rated myself at the end of the day for the past two weeks.
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